I've been going through a lot of personal crap the past couple of months, as well as some very good things, too. I've been teaching one of my best friends how to relax & chill out with meditation. He is always complaining that his mind never shuts off, too many things, worries & distractions are constantly running through his head. I also got him into burning candles & incenses as an aid to relaxing. I try to meditate at least once a day, if not, a few times each week to relax myself & connect to the universe.Last week was a very stressful week, to say the least. So, in order to chill out, take a breather, I decided to do a meditation in my room. Because I was so stressed, I took a nice warm bath beforehand, lit a candle in my room and some sweetgrass incense (I got it last summer at a Pow Wow) and relaxed into my space.
This particular meditation started off different than what I'm used to. I normally go into my usual place and ask for the Goddess' blessing & protection. This time I stepped right into a pool of water and dove under & swam off into the darkness. When I surfaced, after what seemed like a long time underwater, I was in an underground cavern. I had only seen this place before once when I crawled through "Alice's rabbit hole" and talked to a mysterious woman in the shadows. This time I came up out of the water into this cavern and was in a long flowing white gown, a flower garland in my hair and I was completely dry. The water looked black in the darkness of the cave, save for a candle burning on the wall behind me. The air was warm & comforting and I felt at ease, no stress. Then, out of the shadows an old woman in a long black robe stepped out. Her grey hair was long & wavy, her eyes as black as the pool of water in front of me. I felt at ease when I saw Her, no fear. She spoke with a soft voice, giving counsel when I needed it. She listened as I poured my heart out to Her. I knew I was in the presence of the Goddess, for She knew what was troubling me. She knows that I am struggling with my faith, questioning it. She did tell me that it's alright to question things, even my beliefs and not to doubt that which is happening around me. She knew I am feeling a bit disconnected to things and that I need to get myself grounded.After our talk, I felt better, a little bit relaxed and I dove back into the water and swam back to reality. That night I did a little clearing of people on Facebook that I no longer need in my life or those I really don't talk to really. It was a spiritual cleansing of my "friends" list and it made me feel better.
